Savannah's Birth Story Part 3

A very special part to Savannah's birth story was the moment that she would meet her big sister. Selah understood, as best as a 23 month old could understand, that there was a baby in my tummy and her name was "Nana" (her version of Savannah).  

I wrote in a previous post about not understanding how you could love another child as much as you love your first.  I've heard it can take a little while to bond with your second child and that it's completely normal and certainly doesn't make you a bad parent.  
Minutes before leaving for the hospital, I was hit with a wall of emotion.  It was about time for Selah to go to bed.  The next time I would see her, we would be a family of four.  She would no longer be my one and only baby girl.  I began to cry as I pulled her in for one last hug.  I cannot even express the love I have for that little girl.  What parents say is true... I never understood this kind of deep love before I had Selah.  It's impossible to understand unless you experience it first hand... and furthermore, it's hard to even describe.  

For so many months, I had been thinking of the moment my two girls would meet.  When we found out we were having another girl, I was ecstatic!  I have prayed our girls will become wonderful friends and can experience special moments together as sisters.

Selah LOVES her little sister.  She wants to hold her first thing every morning.  She loves giving her kisses.  She becomes very concerned for her when she cries.  She is a big helper to mommy and helps bring diaper wipes and throw away diapers.  I think they'll be great buddies.  This warms and melts this mama's heart.

I love my girls with all my heart.

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Savannah's Birth Story Part 2

Shortly after I had my membranes stripped, I began having contractions.  Or was it just cramping?  I still don't quite know.  I can't tell you how many times I kept googling questions and everyone said the same thing... "you'll probably feel crampy shortly after having your membranes stripped"... ok... so if that's what I was feeling, how do I know when it becomes more like actual labor??  

With Selah's birth, my water broke with no warning so the second time around, I wasn't quite sure what to expect if labor began with solely contractions.  

I began attempting to time these possible "contractions" on an app I had downloaded.  They were pretty much all over the board for awhile.  About noon on, they began to become closer together but were only lasting short periods of time, about 30-40 seconds.  Everything I read said active labor contractions would become closer together (ok, check!) and increase in length (60-90 seconds) (ok... darn).  Mine lasting only 30 seconds sure didn't appear to be amounting to anything significant.

Caleb and I decided to schedule an induction date for that Sunday morning.  I had been texting non-stop with my parents about my possible progression and since my induction was set for Sunday, they were going to come for the weekend.  Although we were all sure I'd have her before Sunday morning. 

And then we did something really smart.  We decided to run out to Menards to pick up some paint samples.  So smart of us, right?
My dad was going to do a coat of paint in the basement that weekend and we were on a time crunch to get paint back to the house for him to begin.  SO.  To Menards we went.  And of course my contractions picked up.  By that time, I knew they were contractions and not just cramping.  And they were about 5 minutes apart.... by the way, that's when you're told to head to the hospital.  Oops!  But they were still only lasting 30-40 seconds.  I wasn't double over in pain but had to stop walking and just quietly breath through them while Caleb chased Selah through the store.  Honestly, I wasn't convinced I was in real labor simply because they weren't lasting all that long.  

We were on our way home when we realized we didn't have anything to eat at home, so we pulled into McDonalds to grab some food.  That cheeseburger and sweet tea tasted so good, in between contractions of course.

I had Caleb call the hospital and explain my progression.  He explained we weren't quite sure if it was real labor since they were only 30-40 seconds long.  At THAT point, they were about 3-4 minutes apart.  I think I was in denial that this was actually the real deal.  They asked if this was my first baby.  Upon hearing it was our second, they said I was probably in real labor and should come right in.  But... but.... the paint samples!  We didn't get them painted on the wall and we haven't decided on a color!  Drat.

Within minutes, about 6:15p my parents pulled into the driveway.  By this time, the contractions were much more painful and I needed to really breath through them.  We knew Selah would be really excited to see my parents and we didn't want to throw her off anymore than she was about to be thrown off in the upcoming days.  We decided my mom would take me to the hospital to get checked in, Caleb would put Selah down and then once his mom got to the house to stay with her, Caleb and my dad would head to the hospital as well.

They checked me in lickety split and sure enough, I was dilated to 5-6 centimeters.  For the next couple hours, I endured what I would consider legitimate painful labor.  Sure I don't have anything to compare it to but I was in pain and beyond ready for my wonderful epidural.  After each contraction, I already felt exhausted.  I don't know how women can go through natural labor and push through all that pain and contractions and for potential hours. In between contractions, I felt I could have fallen right asleep.
Finally.  Finally I was able to get that sweet, sweet epidural.  Although, it took a solid 20-30 minutes for my epidural to even be injected.  That was rough.  I wrote in Selah's birth story that receiving an epidural was surprisingly a piece of cake as far as the pain goes.  But having it injected while having painful contractions and constant shaking is what made it more grueling.  I don't recall it taking that long with Selah but for some reason, it took awhile this time.  Or maybe it just felt like forever because I was in MUCH more pain this time around.

By 9p, I was pain free.  Ahhhh sweet relief.  The nurse placed me on my side with a big ol' peanut shaped ball in between my legs to help open my pelvis and move the baby along.  She said she'd be back in after awhile to shift me.  Well... 2 hours later she came back.  And here's where it got interesting.  She shifted me to the other side.  Immediately my water broke.  She checked me and sure enough, 10 centimeters!  It was about 11:15p at this point and she asked if I felt any urges to push.  Unfortunately, I didn't have that impending pressure-filled sensation just yet.  I wanted so badly to begin pushing.  I wanted a due-date baby!  I kept looking at the clock... 40 min left before midnight.  Could I do it?  I pushed for an hour with Selah... it was a complete toss up.

They brought the doctor in for me to try a couple pushes to see if any legitimate progress was happening.  Within minutes, I suddenly felt that strong pressure I was hoping to feel.  I was ready to push.  But first... wait... am I?... yes... I'm going to be sick.  Why is it I always have fast food type food in my system when I'm in labor?  First time it was hot dogs. Second time, McDonalds.  What wonderful choices Ash.  
Ok... now that that's over... let's begin.  
I pushed a couple times.  "There's her head!"  What?... already?  Ok, well great!  But with Selah, we saw her little head for like 45 minutes before she actually came out.  I knew it could still be awhile.  I pushed again.  
And then that dreaded sound crept over the monitor.  Her heartbeat.  Her slow... slow heartbeat.  It had dropped significantly.  No, no, no.  Not again. Selah's heart rate had dropped too and it's a very scary sound to hear.  They put me on my side and I pushed in a different position.  The doctor did a cool little trick and rubbed the baby's head which got her heart rate back up.  Ok... back on track. Let's keep going.

I was surrounded by such wonderful coaches.  Everyone telling me, "Push, push, push, you're doing great!"  I leaned my head back, took a breath, closed my eyes and pushed as hard and as best as I could (by the way, it's actually quite difficult to know what you're doing when you have an epidural and can't really feel much).  
And suddenly I felt something... something different... like a weird relief and I hear someone say something like "There she is, or here she comes" or something like that... I popped open my eyes and sure enough, her head was completely out and her little body followed suit.  What?!  Seriously?!  Already?!  About 10 minutes in and here she was... screaming on my chest, my eyes filled with tears and joyful laughter filling the room.  Our daughter was here.  She was finally here.  I could not have been happier in that moment.

Those first moments of holding my daughter on my chest were beyond euphoric.  The nurse placed her on my chest and within a few minutes, she stopped crying and we just laid there together in complete peace and joyful bliss.  

Savannah Joy had joined our family on her due date, Friday, April 17 at 11:44pm.  She's the tiniest, sweetest little peanut weighing in at 6 lbs 11 oz.  We have fallen completely in love with this precious babe and I thank God for the beautiful gift we have in our second daughter, our sweet Savannah Joy.

My sweet husband leading us in prayer over the delivery of our daughter

Straight action shot, just seconds out of the womb (props to my mom for being quick and catching these shots!)

Proud daddy

Friday.  April 17.  What started as a day filled with anxiety and questions, progressing with confusion and denial, it ended with the clear fact that I was in real labor that day and it would result in the birth of our beautiful daughter.  What a day.  What. a. day.  And I would do it again in a heartbeat, just to relive the magic of her birth.

Savannah's Birth Story Part 1

Friday.  April 17.  My due date.
I woke up feeling exhausted.  So what else is new in this pregnancy?  Well this time, I woke up feeling exhausted because I had been up throughout the night thinking.  I woke up feeling unsure, guilty, confused, a weight on my shoulders... and I had less than 2 hours to make a final decision.

You see, the previous evening I was at my small group Bible study and the topic of having your membranes stripped came up.  If you're really into learning about all things medical and pregnancy and you're dying to know how it works, you can read about it here.  Many of my friends have had this procedure done as a way to kick start labor.  A surprising number actually.  Everyone seemed at ease when talking about having it done and for the majority of them, it was a success (meaning labor began relatively quickly after having it done).  

The problem was I felt really uneasy about having this procedure done.  And that's what kept me up throughout the night.  Should I do it?  Should I not do it?  Should I continue to wait it out?  The next morning, April 17, was my due date.  And I had been antsy... REALLY REALLY antsy to have this baby.  As our alarm (Miss Selah) woke us up, I began spewing my thoughts to Caleb.  My appointment was at 8a and I needed to decide if I was going to do this or not.  We both started googling it and I began to do what I do best in that situation... cry.  

I was anxious to have labor begin that day because for one, I was way past ready to meet my daughter.  I wanted to have a due date baby.  It was a Friday and the timing would have worked out nicely regarding my parents being able to make it and stay for the weekend.
But on the other hand, aside from all the ideals, I felt an immense amount of guilt if I had this procedure done.  I felt like I was trying to control when my daughter was to be born.  I felt like I was trying to play the role of God and I did not feel ok about that.  Should I just let nature take its course and go into labor when God allows it?  Or was it a bad thing to attempt to jump start it and see what happens?  It really felt like a difficult decision especially since I had little time left to decide.

I prayed about it as I shuffled through getting ready and out the door and sought godly advice from trusted family and friends.

I got in the car and still didn't know what I was going to do.  

My doctor said I was still at 3 centimeters.  I'd been 3 centimeters for over a week and a half!  Argh.  Really?  No progression?  Well that's frustrating.  I began inquiring about the procedure.  She also spoke of it very casually although sure to tell me there's never a guarantee it'll actually start labor.  In that moment, I agreed although still slightly hesitant, to her doing it.  Side note.  It was PAINFUL.  Uuuum OUCH!  

I left the appointment and felt at ease.  I did not feel guilty.  I actually felt kind of indifferent about what had just been done.  The procedure was over.  No going back.  All I could do at that point was go about my day and see if anything progressed.  

And progress... major progress we saw....

40 weeks exactly!

We cray cray

We decided fairly recently to remodel our basement... in the midst of being "this" close to having a newborn.  Crazy?  Maybe so.
We thought it would be finished by now had we hired out the whole project.  But after budgeting out the finances, we decided to do 75% of it ourselves.  And that always takes longer. And it almost always produces snags.   And by we I mean Caleb and my dad.  
This pregnant lady can't do a whole lot.  I spent a few hours vacuuming one night and paid for it dearly.  
By the way, considering all the snaffoos, foreseen and unforeseen that came up, Caleb and my dad have done an outstanding job.  I'm very  proud of my hubby and all he has learned about construction and home ownership in the past few years.
Anywho, the basement was actually finished beforehand.  However, it was finished in a cheap way to help sell the house (which it did!) and after discussing it we decided we wanted to put money into "really finishing it".  That will become our main hang out spot for parties, play dates and a play area for the girls and when they're older, a safe, welcoming place for our kids to have friends over.

The walls were paneled and were already beginning to pop out.  Old windows that were quite drafty.  There was a dividing wall put up for some odd reason and we wanted to tear it down to open up the whole basement.  We were going to try and salvage the carpet but there were 3 separate areas of carpet missing after tearing our the wall and re-framing a couple areas.  Plus it got nasty after demo-ing and drywall.  I think I could vacuum over and over and over and still find nails in the carpet.  So.  New carpet it is!

Caleb demo-ed the whole basement himself and my dad graciously offered to help us with electrical work, framing and painting.  We decided to hire out drywall/mudding.  

Super excited to have it completed.  I'd say it's about half done currently and the hard part is behind us, thankfully.  Painting, trim, storage unit, outlets and carpet has yet to be finished.  But that's the cleaner part of a basement remodel and more fun because you can see the finish line!  

Can't wait to enjoy the finished product this summer!  I kept forgetting to take pics along the way so this is all I have.

The nasty demolition work

Right about where Caleb is standing is where the dividing wall was put up.  

It was gross and messy.

Notice there are no lights in the ceiling.

Notice the lovely recessed lighting in the ceiling!  Thanks dad for all the electrical work!  We LOVE the way they look!  Right where the odd strips of blue/green lines are in the carpet... that's where the diving wall was put up.  

Our drywall guy gave us 48 hours notice that we had to clear out the entire basement along with a large to-do list for Caleb before they could begin drywall.  YIKES!  We spent the next two nights working on getting everything ready.  Caleb's dad came over and helped carry down 33 sheets of 12 foot long drywall.  Again.  YIKES!  Thankfully, it fit down the stairs and they did it relatively quickly.  And yes, I even helped :)  Probably shouldn't have but I didn't go into labor!  By the way, if you re-do anything that involves drywall, you can save money by ordering drywall through a place like Home Depot rather than having the drywall company provide it.  You just have to be willing to move the drywall yourself!

Ahhhhh fresh drywall!!!!  

Caleb and my dad re-framed part of this wall, adding the angled wall and added a door to the laundry room.

New windows and below is the storage area that already existed and it was just easier to leave it that way.  It will be storage used for toys.

I'll be sure to post more pics as we progress further.

Ready

Tomorrow marks 38 weeks pregnant for this mama.  It was 38 weeks exactly that my water broke with little Miss "Sesah" as she calls herself.  One can only hope for the same this time around!  I'm unsure why but I have been incredibly... incredibly impatient awaiting the birth of this little one.   It's silly of me really.  There are tons of benefits to her staying inside of me.  She sleeps on her own. She's automatically fed.  She's held.  She's safe.  My body, internally, is taking care of her constantly. Once she's out.... game. changer.

But I'm still anxious, very anxious for labor to begin and to meet our tiny peanut.  She has been measuring on the small side during the last few months.  I have my last growth ultrasound tomorrow at 38 weeks to check her progression.  I'm sure she is just fine.  I can tell my baby bump has grown in the last few weeks, as it should, so I'm not worried at all. Just ready.  Very ready.  

The typical 3rd trimester annoyances have reared their ugly heads just as they did with Selah.  These two pregnancies have been extremely alike by the way.   

I bounce back and forth between wanting to have her NOW and trying to soak in every ounce of this pregnancy as possible.  OUR plans are to have two children.  So... after this... if the Lord allows, we will be finished having children.  However, I know, just know there will come a time when I yearn to be pregnant again... when my heart will ache to have a live human growing inside of me.  So that's where I take a step back, put my hands on belly and just feel her.  Think about her.  Pray for her.

I know how much my heart loves my daughter, Selah.  Right now, it's hard to imagine loving another little human just as much.  Selah has been our whole world these past two years.  How do you make room to love another child just as much?  I have read and heard from others that you just... do.  And it's just as incredible.  I cannot wait to meet our daughter.  And I cannot wait to see Selah be a big sister to her.  She is going to be wonderful and I think seeing my girls together will make my heart swell even more.

35 weeks

36 weeks

37 weeks

Literally looks like I swallowed a basketball. Weird.